It's 5am. I've been having trouble sleeping all night. All week, actually. All month, actually. But especially during this period power week. Also, the weather here in California has been really odd & extreme. It was raining heavily a few weeks ago -the most it has in many years, and now it feels hot & dry like summer weather. These are the sad effects of climate change. The flowers started blooming (yay!) and my allergies started suck (boo!) &.. as I lie awake in bed, I feel hot and cold at the same time/I feel sick, but I don't have the flu? 🤔 More pimples are bombarding my face, & my head and body aches. I feel overwhelmed & am trying not to cry on a daily basis -not because I am ashamed, but simply because I hate how puffy my eyes get and then I get more frustrated, etc. ..Is it the full moon? I don't know. I'm also questioning the validity of my depression. Thoughts of things said by ignorant people to gaslight or invalidate people with mental illness, ptsd, and the struggles of women of color.
School has been a real struggle these past 2 weeks, but I know I'll get through it. I'm a little behind on my work, but I just need to rest when I can and work extra hard. I've gotten through so much worse. Last year was so much worse. And the other years that trauma x & trauma y happened, I also survived. So, with that in mind, I will survive this week and hopefully thrive next week.. & YOU WILL TOO 💖 Have a nice day. Ps: I took this pic yesterday afternoon & it gives me comfort. 🌻
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